Anyone with a 2 year old, a husband and a roommate/sister knows the value of absolute silence at 9:30 in the morning. I keep telling myself that if I could just wake my lazy ass up at 7am instead of 9 when Aubrey wakes up, and pry myself off of Warcraft before 2am, that I could have a lot more private time! My body does not listen to me.
Over the weekend I got a MySpace bulletin from our local feminist bookstore saying they were hiring. I am desperate to work a little, but not so that I would need to put Aubrey in a regular daycare.
I used to think - "hmmm, this stay at home stuff is awesome. play with your awesome child. keep the house manageable. i'll have time to read. i'll have time to write. i'll have time to catch up on all the seasons of TV i have never watched (i have all of arrested development on dvd, have never seen one episode)." FALSE!
First of all, moving to Texas and not knowing anyone outside my household was really hard. harder than i ever thought it could be. for the last 8 years i have lived and worked on a college campus, so meeting people and making friends was super-easy....part of my job.
Second, children who pretty much will stay where you leave them at 6 months BECOME MOBILE! So, a lot of my day involves me saying, "No, Aubrey, please don't climb the cat. Aubrey, we don't stick cell phones in the toilet. Aubrey, it is not nice to poke Mom in the ass with Mr. Potato Head. No, not the cat either." And, to be honest, Aubrey is a pretty laid back, low-key child. But still takes a lot of energy.
Digression: We are such bad parents. Aubrey started learning normal words - colors, numbers, letters, mom, dad, etc. Some of her other first words: rainbow, pirate, octopus, damn it, fuck, fucking, butt fuck, gay (she was chanting this at one point - and NO, we do not use this word as a pejorative in my house, we were actually describing someone's orientation), frog, dolphin, cat, dog, etc. Brian and I are already trying to figure out how we are going to handle the principal's phone calls.
Anyway, a job at this bookstore would give me the chance to get paid while being around, talking about, and selling books on women, by women, about women, etc. It would make me feel like more a part of the Austin community. It would give us some extra spending cash, and let me save up for my the tattoo work i want done on my back. It would also give me the chance to meet more people and make more friends.
That is actually one thing I am really happy about. Over the last month or so, I have really forced myself to get out and meet new people. I have met some folks through this whole poetry thang, and went to my first party this weekend. how exciting! i know i sound lame, but it was a big step for me.
ok, well, aubrey is up now thanks to the air conditioner guy ringing the doorbell, so i gotta go, for now.
send me lucky vibes for the bookstore job!
~missy